I left Kuwait two days ago. It wasn't a decision that I made lightly, nor one that I hope to have to make again. It was a decision that was for the best. A decision that looking back now, I wish I could have done differently, but what is done is ...done. No regrets. No matter what life is full of decisions, some we make in a moment and others we think about for a lifetime. For me Kuwait was a decision that I made in a flash of a moment. I made it because I was running. I was running from someone and the ideals of something that I had hoped and longed for, but the reality is that I was really running from myself.
I don't regret taking the job in Kuwait. I don't regret the people that I met, and the things that I experienced. I don't regret it because I know that God uses each of our choices for his glory and good. No matter where we go and what we do, His hands are there to guide and direct.
I prayed a lot the past two months. I cried, I screamed and I wrote. I was not happy with what I was being asked to do, and the way that I was being treated. I wasn't happy with the community that I had been planted in.
So I made a decision to leave.
I will always be thankful for my time in Kuwait. I will always be thankful for my students and will earnestly pray for each of them to one day know Jesus. I hope that even as I write this.
I want more in life then just to be a blonde teacher that gives A's. I want students to leave my classroom knowing that they can be whatever they want to be. I want them to be defined by something more than just a grade, or their family name. That wasn't possible in Kuwait.
So, for me it is time to move on. I will start a new blog. As I leave this one behind. I am not sure that I made the right decision, because I already know that this new job is not going to be easier. But it is going to be more God-honoring.
So this is not good-bye...just see you later.
Kuwait you will always be a part of my heart. My students...I already miss them!
As I write this the reality has sunk in, and the tears that I didn't think were there...well here they are streaming down my face.
My only strength is Him....I don't have anything else to give
