Leaving Kuwait...

I left Kuwait two days ago.  It wasn't a decision that I made lightly, nor one that I hope to have to make again.  It was a decision that was for the best.  A decision that looking back now, I wish I could have done differently, but what is done is ...done.  No regrets.  No matter what life is full of decisions, some we make in a moment and others we think about for a lifetime.  For me Kuwait was a decision that I made in a flash of a moment.  I made it because I was running.  I was running from someone and the ideals of something that I had hoped and longed for, but the reality is that I was really running from myself.  

I don't regret taking the job in Kuwait.  I don't regret the people that I met, and the things that I experienced.  I don't regret it because I know that God uses each of our choices for his glory and good.  No matter where we go and what we do, His hands are there to guide and direct.  

I prayed a lot the past two months.  I cried, I screamed and I wrote.  I was not happy with what I was being asked to do, and the way that I was being treated.  I wasn't happy with the community that I had been planted in.  

So I made a decision to leave.  

I will always be thankful for my time in Kuwait.  I will always be thankful for my students and will earnestly pray for each of them to one day know Jesus.  I hope that even as I write this.  

I want more in life then just to be a blonde teacher that gives A's.  I want students to leave my classroom knowing that they can be whatever they want to be.  I want them to be defined by something more than just a grade, or their family name.  That wasn't possible in Kuwait.  

So, for me it is time to move on.  I will start a new blog.  As I leave this one behind.  I am not sure that I made the right decision, because I already know that this new job is not going to be easier.  But it is going to be more God-honoring.  

So this is not good-bye...just see you later.  

Kuwait you will always be a part of my heart.  My students...I already miss them!  

As I write this the reality has sunk in, and the tears that I didn't think were there...well here they are streaming down my face.  

My only strength is Him....I don't have anything else to give